Also, wow, it seems like you're taking this hard -- though I completely understand and sympathize. I get the same way when a significant deluge of bad rl/political and/or LGBT/women/race-phobic-fail hits. My personal suggestion would be to balance the rage/sadness over more serious woes with some sleep and a dose of your favourite + most enjoyable fannish things. I firmly believe a little harmless relaxation is needed to keep us all sane.