swim through the fires to stay in this world

If I may ask, while growing up, have you had shoved food into you because the family said you have to eat enough [and more], or the other way around, that you were told not to eat too much? For me, it was the first, and it's kind of still like that. My mother cooks way too much and my father keeps telling her to cook rather too much than too little. And if there are no leftovers, he's like, "We can be thankful, no one took too much of this or that, or it wouldn't have been enough." Even though, we are all stuffed. And if I don't eat much, he's like, "What? Wasn't it good?" Which is so not the point, you know? We could do one or two days without eating so much, but my dad and my brother always wants lots, and always meat. 'Cause god forbit, without meat, it's no real meal. :-\

I never really tried a diet, and I don't really believe in counting calories. Maybe because I know that I don't eat much, but I know that I should do some kind of exercise, which I don't do at the moment. And I guess it sounds odd if I said that I'm too embarrassed to go to a gym. I could do some workout at home, but then I'd had to deal with my family's stupid sayings. :( IDK.