Also, a gym is expensive. I think, I could just go for walks or runs here, but I can already hear them saying something like, "What? Want to lose weight all or a sudden? How come? Did you realize you can't go on like that?" :(

I know that I can't go on like that, I don't want to. I don't want to look the way I do, but it's hard, too, and a little support would be nice. :(