I Cannot Believe I Fucking Picked Up The Phone

[redbrunja]

So my mom called to read me part of an article she was reading regarding weight loss which said, in short, a billion years of evolution is working against you when you try to lose weight and calorie counting/dieting tends to not work in the long term. Which is all stuff I know. However, what the fuck else am I supposed to do? Because when I don't count calories, I a.) gain weight and b.) make up 'deals' regarding what I can eat and when in a (vain) effort to have control over my weight, so telling me to stop counting calories is like telling me to take off a parachute and jump off a building - oh, don't worry, you'll figure out how to fly on the way down.

And I know my mom is telling me this because she's worried about me starving myself but frankly, my (unhealthy, admittedly) response to that article was, 'well, given that I never learned how to eat like a normal person, I guess I am just going to have to accept that I will be keeping track of every fucking bite of food I eat for the rest of my entire life.'

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[grav-ity.livejournal.com]

And I guess it sounds odd if I said that I'm too embarrassed to go to a gym. I could do some workout at home, but then I'd had to deal with my family's stupid sayings.

THIS! I hate the idea of going to the gym, and the idea of my family monitoring my lifestyle just makes it WORSE.

[spirited-lizard.livejournal.com]

Also, a gym is expensive. I think, I could just go for walks or runs here, but I can already hear them saying something like, "What? Want to lose weight all or a sudden? How come? Did you realize you can't go on like that?" :(

I know that I can't go on like that, I don't want to. I don't want to look the way I do, but it's hard, too, and a little support would be nice. :(