I'm So Tired Of Being Tired

[redbrunja]

I swear, right now, I want to quit fandom.

No, there is nothing hugely dramatic prompting this. I am just so, so weary of the ingrained sexism and the fandom drama and the female character hate and the shipping wars.

I feel like declaring that after July, I'm going to go back to western tv and liveaction fandoms, because when two very different mangakas annoy me in exactly the same way in one fucking evening, and my own over-investment in a pairing + spoilers + the damn fandom itself is threatening to ruin the show that ruined me for anime....

Something is very wrong here.

(And then I remember that my previous happy skippy live action comedy show is killing my love, as is my current sci-fi drama, my last sci-fi drama betrayed me horribly, and my last girl-centric show was torturous near the end, and I realize I'm going to need to go back to reading books and give myself time to let the wounds heal.)

Comments

[fairest1.livejournal.com]

Indeed it does. But once you've moved over to a journal based around a specific fandom, it's hard to really leave it. The good bits cling to your fandom-heart, too many people know you and would track you down and beg you to come back if you left, the authors give you admin abilities on the official message board . . . it reaches a point that you realize you're stuck in the fandom until it dies for good.

So I'll continue to love Snow/Bigby and continue to work on fics where Snow kicks twenty kinds of ass and Bigby loves her for it.

[redbrunja.livejournal.com]

You poor girl.