Body, Do I Deserve This?

[redbrunja]

Dear Body,

We have a nice relationship, don't we? I feed you good food, I exercise you, I put pretty, pretty clothes on you and do my best not to fall into the american-female-self-loathing pit.

Admittedly, last quarter I did put you through a lot- late nights, studying for almost twelve hours a day, fueling you with the food that school provides, asking you to function under major sleep deprivation.... I'm not mad at you for bitchslapping me with that cold at the end of the quarter, just like always, and really, I appreciate the fact that I didn't need antibiotics like the last two times, but come on now.

I HAVE BEEN SICK FOR THE LAST THREE WEEKS. The dreaded word 'mono' has been mentioned. In five days school starts up again. In case you didn't know, I'm taking 16 credits of writing intensive classes. I need you to be functioning.

I'm doing everything in my power to make you better– I'm going for long walks instead of bike rides in the pouring rain, I'm taking my vitamons, I'm getting to bed at a decent hour (10:30 on the dot, tonight) so can you do your part and let me fracking get to sleep?

I'm tired, I actually want to sleep, and you won't let me! I want to get well, damnit! Work with me here.

Very little love,

redbrunja

Comments

[mzminola.livejournal.com]

...may I suggest you drop the long walks, and increase the amount of liquids consumed?
Lie down somewhere, with a book, maybe a laptop (don't sit and stare at the computer screen), propped up a little with pillows, and rest.
Hope you feel better soon.

[redbrunja.livejournal.com]

But they're gentle walks; fresh air is good for healing, and lying on a couch with a book and or labtop is about all I've been doing lately.

Although I probably should be drinking more liquids.

I'm actually feeling better every day- it's just that I've relapsed several times (my own damn fault, plus the holidays) and now that I have five days until I go back to school, I'd really like to have some energy again. And the insomnia isn't helping.

[redbrunja.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the well-wishes, and advice, even if I took it a little ungraciously.

[mzminola.livejournal.com]

S'cool.
Teeeaaa.
Hope you feel better soon. So you can play DDR before you leave!

[redbrunja.livejournal.com]

Tea is good.

It's not so much that I'm feeling bad as I'm not totally well. I just wish I had my normal energy levels back. That's basically all that's still wrong with me.