swim through the fires to stay in this world

Today (this week actually) is 'help mom with projects around the house week'. Unfortunately, it's pouring down rain, so I can't weed (the garden is what needs the work the most) and our mechanic is swamped, so I can't take the car in today to get the heater fixed.

So I'm going to be cleaning my baseboards (for the third time) hoping that the ants will finally get the hint and go away, and balancing my checkbook.

Also I can sense Naruto circling closer and closer to me via my flist. Can someone tell me which episodes have Tamari and Shikamaru in them? And if there's somewhere on line I can (preferably) stream them with subtitles? (I actually don't know what the dub is like, but I prefer to hear the native language something is filmed in.)

I am hungry, and everything tastes horrible.

The apples we just bought are mushy and mine had a huge bad spot, the noodles are unappealing, the potato and artichoke salad was disgusting, the bagels are moldy, and I'm so fucking sick of eggs.

Also, I'm not eating sugar or diary, so just about everything I WOULD be eating right now, were I to go, 'fuck it, it's 9 pm on a Friday, I want [blank]' is off-limits.

Bitch, bitch, bitch.

Trying to beat the manuscript I got a third of the way through doing it the NanoWriMo way 2 summers ago into a workable format so I can continue writing it.

I'm telling myself that I only need to write better than the worse thing I've ever read published. It kind of helps.

It is being difficult, not the least because I have 30 open browsers to distract me, and about 60 unsorted songs in folders on my desktop (yeah, I'm one of those crazy people who has trouble writing when things are messy).

Speaking of: FBI FAQ. Because I know that is going to come in handy later, like when I work on my distance viewing story. (Speaking of, does anyone have any good book recs on how that works? You know, where people draw crime scenes and such?)

Also, the Yaone story I was bragging about a SakuraCon (pzb, read this).

I can't even get motivated to work on my fanfic.

Thus, meme-age:

Give me a kink and a pairing and I'll give you at least a sentence of kink.

(I'm operating on the assumption that once I start writing something, everything else will flow.)

Cosplay/life update: my family is cursed. That is all there is too it.

Secondly, for various reasons, I'm not going to be eating sugar or dairy for three weeks after SakuraCon - if you have delicious sugar- and dairy- free recipes, please let me know.

Thirdly:

While I am pretty evenly split between fanon/canon OTPs, I have noticed a distinct tendency for me to write more for my fanon OTPs. Now, I think there are several reasons for this, from fanon being less 'there' (i.e. less need to write/read fic to get my OTP fix, when I can just watch the show and see it) to having more room to play. But I really wanted to open the floor to discuss this (code: I'm chained to my ironing board, please entertain me).

So, what is your opinion on the stronger pull (if you notice one) to fanon couples?

Or, if read fanfic for your canon OTP, what does fanfic give you that the original media doesn't. (Besides smut.)

I rearranged all the posters on my walls, and washed them, being sure to leave plenty of room for the pencil boards the I'll undoubtedly pick up at SukuraCon.

However, I can't tell if one particular section looks good or not. It may need further reorganization.

That is all.

Can't wind down enough to sleep. Decided now was the prime time to reorganize my room. Might risk going into the greenroom and grabbing some college stuff to unpack too.

I feel like Rory: I half expect my mother to lock me in the laundry room.

It's very sad that I don't use the huge, decent stereo that I have more (as in, ever. I don't think I've touched it in the last... year? more? I just moved it so I'll have more room and am now listening to Jann Arden on it.)

Speaking to the writers on my flist - I'm going to be starting work on my two original novels again, and am realizing that I may want a better system of organization than I have now. I remember a lot of people where talking about.... Scrivener? Anyway, I'd love feedback on how you keep your novels organized. Right now I'll either have one huge work file or a bunch of different docs in a folder.

Dear smillaraaq:

I got the package today - thank you so, so much! I can't smell the perfumes because my nose is totally stuffed up, but the makeup looks gorgeous and I can't wait to play around with it all geisha-like. *rubs hands in anticipation*

You are totally awesome and made of win.

Love,
redbrunja

And just because:

1. Comment in this post with a pairing, a character, or a threesome.
2. I shall write you back a paragraph explaining what I think about it (good, bad, indifferent) and why.
3. Just repost in your own journal.

Which do I hate more (and thus want to talk about least) Epileptic or Black Hole?

I'd never do it, but if someone made me a sincere offer.... well, I'd ponder. (For, oh, about .05 seconds, honestly).

And usually, when I over sleep, I wake up with just enough time to throw on clothes and make it to my class. This time, I had enough time to throw on clothes and get to my second class on time.

TWO ALARM CLOCKS FAILED TO GO OFF!

That is what I get for going to bed at a decent hour: nightmares that wake me up an hour after I get to bed, I toss and turn for hours, get convinced that there are fleas in my bed, think about taking a shower and changing the sheets, go, no, you need to sleep, ignore your neuroses, look at the clock, realize it's five in the morning, think, 'at this point, I should just get up and write fanfic,' and then I fall asleep and miss the one hard class with the ass of a teacher.

I tell this to my mother in the grocery store as we buy parsley, and she goes, "That's a classic anxiety dream. You're really distraught."

Me: "WHAT? I'M NOT DISTRAUGHT! WHAT WOULD YOU SAY THAT? I THINK IF I WERE DISTRAUGHT I'D FEEL MORE UPSET."

Her: *gestures* Do you realize that your voice-

Me: I KNOW MY VOICE WENT UP BUT MY POINT STILL STANDS.

Also, some random meta on Avatar vids that I thought about on the drive home: